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Floral WIP Painting in New Oils

Well, I started another oil painting this morning and got this far before deciding to do a WIP (work in progress) of it.

This is a painting of some orchids and I know the pencil drawing is a little light so hope you can see the actual flowers well enough.  As you can see, the background is pretty much finished although I may tweak it a bit later.  I'm very pleased with it so far and it was a dream to paint as blending is easy as is layering lighter colors on top of dark ones.

The only things I'm not sure about are the leaf in the bottom left corner and that stem beside it so I may take them out.  I'll wait and think about it a bit more first though.

My DH, CiCi (our Maltese) and I went to Hobby Lobby yesterday where I got some paint brushes, a nice canvas and this cradled panel with canvas texture from Ampersand.  This one happens to be 12 inches square as I knew I wanted a square format for these orchids.  I usually love Ampersand products although they're very pricey but I'm not real sure about this one.  The paint seemed to drag more on this than the canvas I used for the wave painting shown yesterday.

Which brings me to the brushes I bought - I had seen several recommendations for the Robert Simmons synthetic line which are very reasonable and I've used them before for acrylics & liked them.  However, these seem almost too soft to use with the oil paints.  Of course, it could have been the Ampersand surface instead.  Anyway, I'm reserving judgement on both for right now.

So, I'll eventually try other brushes and surfaces -  Jiminy! a painting supply addiction is almost as costly as a drug addiction!
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Experimenting with Water Miscible Oils

Some time ago I was asked about painting a pet portrait in oil and I said no because of the odor, the mess and frankly, the cost.  Then I remembered some water miscible oils I'd briefly used many, many years ago and thought I'd give them another try.

Of course the tubes I'd used way back then were dried up and harder than brick bats (what's a brick bat anyway?) so I immediately did a little online research and placed an order for some Lukas Berlin water miscible oil paints.  They arrived yesterday and I did the little painting shown above.  Not a masterpiece by any stretch of the imagination but it did give me a good indication of how I'd like these oils.  (I do!)

Because the order was being shipped via that crazy UPS to local Post Office method that took nearly 2 weeks the last time, I wasn't really prepared with canvas or brushes.  I'd hoped to get to Hobby Lobby or Michael's to pick up any supplies I needed as I wanted to see them in person.  But, surprise!  here's the order and I wanted to get started painting so I found two brushes left over from my oil painting days and a small (5x7 inch) stretched canvas.  The wave seemed to have the perfect proportions for the little canvas so I started painting and finished it pretty much in one sitting (alla prima).

I'm someone who really gets inspired playing with the different mediums and I started out painting in oil in high school art waaaaaay back in the 60's so painting in oils again felt very comfortable.  These water miscible oils are great too.  There's virtually no smell and the clean up is quick and easy.  As with any other medium, there is a downside to using them - they still take up to a week or more to dry to the touch and 6 months to a year to dry/cure enough to varnish.  However, many artists are opting not to varnish their paintings so I may follow their example (which would have been heresy in my early years of painting!)  I know I have to relearn some techniques, prepare to be patient with the drying time and practice, practice, practice but I think I'll really enjoy using these paints.
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Away for Vacation

I will be sailing away on a cruise ship to Alaska for about two weeks as of July 20, 2012, so I obviously won't be able to post/update anything for around two weeks.

The "Testing Phase" is almost complete anyway. It will end it when the Mahou Shoujo Madoka Magica Project ends, and I'm still looking for comments and suggestions through private responses or right here.

Don't worry, I won't slack off during vacation. I'll be writing articles while I'm away so I can get right back into business once I come home.

See you!



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Watercolor and Gouache Floral

I'm still playing around with watercolor and gouache and thought I'd try a flower painting instead of an animal this time.  These are some cosmos flowers from a reference photo by Debbie Byess on Paint My Photo.  It's a work in progress and is watercolor and gouache on Arches Hot Pressed watercolor paper.

I still have some shading to do on the stems and some additions of the ferny leaves.  Also, the background needs some more work.  While it looks black here, it's really a mixture of various greens, blues and the pink and maroon of the flowers.  Since I'll want to use this primarily for prints (if it ends up good enough!), I want the background to look flatter and more varied than it appears right now.

While I've got you all looking, I'd like to put in a plug for my friend, Sue Clinker from PencilPix blogspot.  She has a wonderful entry in a "Best of British Drawing Contest" sponsored by Derwent and the winner will be determined by votes.  Her painting is of her husband trying to bar-b-que in the rain (which I gather is pretty typical of British weather much of the time).  Here is a link to the contest:

http://promoshq.wildfireapp.com/website/6/contests/222621/voteable_entries?page=1


You can vote for up to 20 entries and I do hope you'll find Sue's entry and will vote for it as I think she's done a wonderful job on this painting.  It's called "Typical British BBG" by Sue Clinker.



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The Tragedies, Survival, and Redemption of Sakura Kyoko (Part 2)



Why did Kyoko try to help Sayaka?


As I said before, the best way to answer this question is to look back at what Kyoko said herself.


"It'd be like a story where love and courage wins, you know? When I think about it, I became a Mahou Shoujo because I loved those stories. Although I've already seen past that, Sayaka has led me back to that reason again." - Kyoko, Episode 9.




Although it became temporarily forgotten to her, Kyoko became a Mahou Shoujo with a wish based on love and courage, because they were two things that made her happy as a child.

After witnessing the destruction of her family due to her wish filled with these virtues, she concluded that the bases of the wish, love and courage, were the sole causes of her family's demise. Therefore, she concluded in her mind that love and courage were fatal illusions that destroyed everyone they were directed towards.

Such is the cruel truth of the world that Kyoko claimed to have learned from her experience.

With this conclusion in mind, she crossed paths with Miki Sayaka, a young girl who seemed just as delusional as she was when she was a child. Indeed, the two of them attempted to fight to the death, because the new Kyoko hated seeing anything that looked like her weak and innocent self, who was full of virtues like love and courage. Kyoko was determined to crush such things under her spear for as long as she lived.


However, either because she grew tired of fighting to the death with Sayaka or for more complicated emotional reasons due to the growing amount of time that Kyoko was exposed to Sayaka, we begin to see Kyoko approach Sayaka in a calm and even friendly manner.

In Episode 7, we see Kyoko invite Sayaka over to her father's old church to tell Sayaka about her past. She also gives Sayaka advice on what to do.

When Sayaka asked Kyoko why she was talking to her about her past, (trying to give her advice), Kyoko responded by stating this:

"We both started from a mistaken conclusion. There's no reason to continue on the path you've chosen. You already paid plenty for it. That why I think you should think about changing your ways... I can see the differences between us. And I can see that you've started down the wrong path. I can't just sit and watch. - Sakura Kyoko Episode 7.


What is implied by Kyoko with her last remark, "I can't just sit here and watch", is that she can't bear to see herself going down the wrong path.



But why does it cause Kyoko pain to see Sayaka follow down a path she's been on before?

We may never know the answer to this question, since it is never made clear. Perhaps Kyoko's intentions are actually shallow, with little reasoning behind them.

And oddly enough, this sounds vaguely similar to those who describe their intentions for loving others. And it isn't as if Kyoko was not aware of this either, as seen here:

"This might make people think that I am a fool, but... I absolutely do not want to give up, until we know for sure that she can't be saved." - Kyoko Sakura, Episode 9.


What Kyoko's statement proves is that she knows that there is little logical reasoning behind her actions.


Kyoko understands that her actions are foolish. Yet she performs them anyway.


When I say foolish, I mean that her actions have little reasoning behind them. However, for a reason that is not clearly explained, she does not wish to give up.



Sakura Kyoko, the Mahou Shoujo of survival, logic, and reasoning, has definitely changed. For the first time since her childhood, she decided to act upon her feelings rather than her survival instincts.

"Didn't you say that you believe that you can use this strength to bring happiness to people?" - Kyoko, Episode 9.


Kyoko's question towards Sayaka during their final battle clearly shows Kyoko's new self. Instead of criticizing Sayaka for fighting for the happiness of others, she's asking her why she stopped doing it.

The situation has clearly been reversed, Sayaka lost all reason for fighting for others and Kyoko finally found a reason to do just that.

Kyoko's new self  is shown again just before her death in Episode 9.



"I beg you, God... If this is how my life ends... Let me see a happy dream, just once..." - Sakura Kyoko, Episode 9.


Kyoko's wish before her death is further proof of her change. Kyoko, the perfect fighter, (in a logical and intellectual sense), is asking God, an invisible and illogical being, to give her the foolish illusion of a happy dream.

Basically, Kyoko weighed two things on her inner personal scale:

Emotion vs. survival

Dream vs. reality

Life vs. death

Happiness vs. loneliness




"Being by yourself must be very lonely... Don't worry, I'll stay with you, Sayaka." - Kyoko, Episode 9.


But why does it cause Kyoko pain to see Sayaka follow down a path she's been on before?


Perhaps the above statement is the answer to this question.

Kyoko has faced the same type of trial that Sayaka face. Therefore, she understands the same kind of suffering that came of it. Thus, it is not impossible to say that Kyoko understood the loneliness, which is obviously portrayed as high form of suffering, that Sayaka was facing by herself.

Yet, wouldn't the old Kyoko look at Sayaka and say she deserved it? Just because she knows what Sayaka is going through doesn't mean she has to save her.

Once again, a logical answer remains unapparent. Perhaps there is no logical answer.


Perhaps we can gain a clearer view of the answer just by hearing Kyoko's delicate words for Sayaka, beecause what can also be said about Kyoko's words before her death is that Kyoko remembered how it felt to be happy; specifically, how it felt to live within the happy illusion of dream; a dream that may not be logical and a dream that may never even become true.

However, she felt happy, nonetheless. We see this by the delicate tone of her voice, the dramatic change in her character, and the smile that she wore before she destroyed herself along with Sayaka's witch form.

When weighing her ideals on a scale, Kyoko came to a decision that love and happiness meant more than survival and longevity in the life of a human. And so, her subsequent actions came to show her new ideals, or rather, her old ideals as a child.

I cannot go into more details as to why Kyoko ended up scaling the power of emotions over the power of logical thinking, or why she decided that she wouldn't feel happy if Sayaka was lonely in death, because like I already said, a logical answer is never clearly mentioned.

And because of the lack of an answer, the only thing we can assume is that Kyoko loved her, whatever that may mean.

And thus, Sakura Kyoko found redemption through attempting to save Miki Sayaka, because she died in the bliss of a happy dream, rather than the loneliness of a survival-based warrior who never dreamed.


Kyoko came to found true happiness within her dream, and not within the cruel realities of the world. She was thus redeemed.


Knowing that, I would like to make this statement:


True happiness comes from dreams, not reality. 


Whether or not this is true happiness is up to debate. However, it is unmistakably an intentional statement made by Urobuchi Gen through his character, Sakura Kyoko.

Such are the tragedies, survival, and redemption of Sakura Kyoko.


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TESTING PHASE Support Notes [Day 16]

As you can probably see, I've changed the title of this blog series from Anime Insight to Anime Moon, because I've finally decided that there are indeed way too many other "Anime Insight"s out there. Hopefully I will increase my chances on appearing in search engines by doing this.


I also finally found out how to condense my blogs so that I can achieve a clean look on my home page. Now, all viewers can browse through the most recent blog articles without going through a lot of page loading. When they see an article they would like to read, they can simply click on the title or on the link at the bottom of each article introduction.

Stay tuned for more articles as I finish up going over the character of Mahou Shoujo Madoka Magica and get ready for even more!


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The Tragedies, Survival, and Redemption of Sakura Kyoko (Part 1)

An innocent girl who made a wish to save her family; only to have them destroyed by that very wish.

As the sole survivor of the inhumane  actions performed by her self-destructive father, Sakura Kyoko transformed from an innocent child to a powerful Mahou Shoujo who learned the secrets of staying alive in this dark and cruel world.

For Kyoko, love, courage, and honor become nothing but the meaningless imaginations of a disillusioned child. What matters in life are not the illusions of a naive fairy tale, but the survival of the fittest.


Kyoko Sakura can be considered a tragic hero even before her initial appearance in Mahou Shoujo Madoka Magica. This is for the three major reasons of being a tragic hero:

As a young and loving girl, she saw her father as well as her entire family suffering and struggling to survive on the streets. She wished with all of her heart that she could do something so that their suffering would end, a wish that can be considered very noble by society.

Kyubey showed Kyoko  a way to make a noble wish and dream come true. Could we blame Kyoko for making such a naive and foolish but innocent wish that was full of nobility and love for her family?

However, it is obvious that foolishness lay right behind her wish, or rather right next to it. She told her father about the wish and he fell into despair, which resulted in the destruction of the entire family.

The nobility behind her wish was thus removed, and her fortune was reversed entirely.

One would expect that such a young and innocent Mahou Shoujo would fall into despair as and become a witch at that very moment. However, due to unverified reasons, this did not happen. The clearest answer could possibly be found in her harsh survival experience so early in her childhood, as well as her experience in seeing her wish to help others destroying them instead; both of which  perhaps caused her to see the cruelties of the world, which resulted in some sort of character transformation.

And so, the present character that we see as Sakura Kyoko was thus created.

And because her new character was created based on survival, (as well as her wish), the concept of survival could be found in every one of her actions from that point on. This characteristic I speak of is the ability to accept the situation that is laid before her for what it is and to execute the most efficient action to achieve survival without regret.


Kyoko has the ability to accept any situation laid before her and to come to terms with the actions that she makes in order to achieve survival without regret. 



In this sense, Kyoko can actually be considered to be one of the most powerful Mahou Shoujo in this series.

(Not to mention one hell of a human being.)

If regret leads to despair, which leads to turning into a witch, then Kyoko's most powerful aspect can be considered to be her ability (and perhaps talent) of survival, because regret is a term unknown to her.

Kyoko, therefore, has the special ability of survival. 


Basically, there are three main reasons for Kyoko's strength (survival).

1) Her childhood made her sensitive to life, and gave her the experience of clinging to life by a thread during  her family's times of poverty and neglect.

2) Her wish was based on the her family's survival.

Kyoko's family was brought down to poverty because no one accepted her father's teachings at his church. If people accepted her father's teachings, the family would gain enough wealth to stop struggling to survive on the streets.

3) She learned during her tragic childhood from her experiences as a street child, the daughter of a self-destructive man, and as a Mahou Shoujo that the key of survival comes from the acceptance of one's actions, whether or not they were foolish and brought ruin to others.

She came to realize that as long as an individual never regrets his or her actions, he or she will never fall into despair and will thus always focus on surviving, which she came to believe to be the most valuable thing for a human to hold on to.


Kyoko's ability to come to complete terms with all her actions is almost impossible for human beings, who are beings that have a great desire to live in the past and to regret their actions.

But is Kyoko's strength something to admire?

While it is rare for people like Kyoko to exist in this world, it is not impossible. In most cases, people like Kyoko are actually egoist people who are sometimes even sadistic. After all, if the goal of such people is to survive, then they would do anything they can in order to ensure their own survival. And referring to the sadistic kinds of people, they even find pride and pleasure in seeing that they can survive while others cannot.

And if the main goal is survival, and the ends justify the means, then committing unspeakable acts isn't something to be avoided.



"You know what the food chain is, right? I'm sure you learned about it in school. Witches prey on weak humans and we prey on the witches. That's the way the world works, isn't it? - Kyoko Sakura, Episode 5. 

Such is the philosophy explained by Kyoko Sakura herself as she enters the scene in episode 5 and explains to Sayaka her reason for not killing familiars, regardless of the fact that despite being a weaker form of evil, familiars can actually hurt and kill humans just like witches.

According to this philosophy, once a girl becomes a Mahou Shoujo, she is no longer human, but a seperate being labeled as "Mahou Shoujo". Therefore, human virtues are not to be held by a Mahou Shoujo.

Therefore, if this certain food chain exists, Mahou Shoujo should not even think about saving humans, because doing such a thing prevents a Mahou Shoujo from "eating" according to her proper place on the food chain. In fact, such a thing is foolish and illogical because it does not even follow the logic behind the food chain in the first place.

In the eyes of noble justice however, which is represented  by Miki Sayaka, such inaction towards the relationship between witches/familiars and humans is unspeakable and evil.

Noble justice is not the only thing Kyoko is unaware of because of her focus on survival. Because of Kyoko's philosophy, she ignores things such as love, courage, and honor towards others, not only because she considers herself not to be human anymore, but because such virtues are typically obstacles that stand in the way of survival for any type of living being.


"There's an easier way to make a guy you fell in love with yours, use that magic you worked so hard for. Rush in there right now and break his hands and legs so he'll never be able to use them again. Make him totally helpless without you. Then he'll be yours... body and soul." - Kyoko, Episode 6.

Because Kyoko defines survival as key, all things that would stand in the way of her survival are neglected by her. "True love" is just one example, as shown in the quote above.

For a moment, most likely just to antagonize Sayaka, Kyoko put herself in Sayaka's shoes and spit out what she would do if she were in Sayaka's place.

If, for some reason, she felt that she needed to have a person she "loved" by her side, then she would ensure it, no matter what the cost, in the same way that she would ensure her own survival, which is to make the ends justify the means by using whatever method possible that is most efficient.

Going over to Kamijou Kyousuke just after he healed and breaking his arms and legs would definitely be the most highly successful method in making him fall into utter despair and helplessness. If that happened, Sayaka could visit him all she wants, and have him all to herself.

Obviously, this is based on Kyoko's beliefs, which are based purely on survival at the time. It is not based on love, courage, honor, and justice. Such things are easy to consider as inefficient in the eyes of survival, because they are things that are full of risks.

In a way, Kyoko is a very logical type of person; the type of person who looks for the fastest and most efficient way to accomplish a goal.

Kyoko hated Sayaka.

Why do I say this? This is because Kyoko saw her old self in Sayaka, who was currently making the same mistakes as Kyoko did when she was a child. The mistake I speak of is using the magical powers of a Mahou Shoujo to make a wish/miracle for someone else.

Kyoko learned of this fact when she saw Sayaka's virtues for the first time during their first encounter in the dark alley during Episode 5. If Sayaka were a Mahou Shoujo without these virtues, Kyoko most likely would have killed her silently behind her back, since she wanted the town for herself.

However, when Kyoko saw that Sayaka was chasing only a mere Familiar, she grew curious and decided to question her instead. And what Kyoko learned about Sayaka after hearing her words made Kyoko hate her.

Kyoko saw herself within Sayaka and hated her, because she hated herself. We see this because Kyoko attempted to kill Sayaka twice in the story, once in Episode 5 during their first encounter and again in Episode 6 on the bridge, when Homura was taking too long to get rid of Sayaka peacefully and quietly.

Why exactly did Kyoko hate Sayaka, and what did she see within her?

Sayaka has a flaw that Kyoko could see from the first time she met her. Sayaka made a wish for another person without first understanding that person, (and not even herself in Sayaka's case).

Kyoko, before attempting to kill her, tried to reveal Sayaka's flaw to herself, (although in the form of antagonizing her), but due to Sayaka's stubbornness and hotheadedness, she refused to heed Kyoko's words, which did indeed have truth behind them despite the sadistic appearance. Sayaka ignored Kyoko's warnings since Kyoko represented the most vile evil of all things in the world within Sayaka's eyes, (even more vile than Witches).

Kyoko, seeing that Sayaka was a fool who represented her own past self and refused to listen to her own words of advice, thus tried to kill Sayaka twice. However, we see something unusual happen in Episode 7.

This unusual thing is Kyoko's action to talk to Sayaka peacefully. In Episode 7, we see Kyoko take Sayaka  to her old man's church and tell Sayaka of her childhood.

Thus, she told Sayaka of her past mistakes and follies, which were the same mistakes Sayaka was currently making. In the eyes of Kyoko and the audience, this is generally regarded as an act of compassion from Kyoko to Sayaka.

But why this act of compassion?



Why did Kyoko try to help Sayaka?

It is impossible to understand this change of heart for sure unless Kyoko somehow tells us herself.

As we know, something happens to Kyoko's that somehow makes her seem different, which is especially seen in Episodes 7, 8, and 9. Instead of hugging to the belief that survival is the key to life, she makes a rash decision to save Sayaka, which is completely unlike her.

"This might make people think that I am a fool, but... I absolutely do not want to give up, until we know for sure that she can't be saved." - Kyoko Sakura, Episode 9.

Why the change of heart? What is the meaning behind this? What is the meaning behind Kyoko has a character?

I will look more into this in the next part of this post. Stay tuned!



















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Watercolor Lucie


I've been exploring pet portraits in watercolor for some time and really like the medium of watercolor and gouache (opaque watercolor) but I haven't had a lot of time to experiment with it lately.  Recently an online friend posted some photos of a little service dog trainee that she was keeping and I couldn't resist painting her.  I also felt that she would be a perfect subject for a watercolor portrait.

My husband is usually my best critic and he thought the painting lacked enough contrast (first photo) so I went back in and deepened some of the color.  I think I like the first version best but it's done now so I plan to leave it alone.  What do you think?  Comments and critiques are always welcome.
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The Transcendence of Kaname Madoka



The wish and transcendence of Kaname Madoka are one of the most unique concepts I have ever yet seen in all of film/anime history.

Urobuchi has done something bold; he has created, in a sense, a god, or at least the basic concept of one, through the innocent character of his story named Kaname Madoka.

In the 12th episode of Mahou Shoujo Madoka Magica, Kyubey asks Madoka if she intends to become a god with her wish.

That wish... If you realize this wish, then it's greater in magnitude than tampering with time! It's a violation of the principle of a cause-and-effect itself! Do you really want to become a god? - Kyubey, Episode 12.


Did Madoka indeed become a god?



To answer this question, we should first define what a god is.

I figured that for this particular article, due to the touchiness of the subject, I should pull the definition of "god" from elsewhere.

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Wikipedia:

God is often conceived of as the supernatural creator and overseer of the universe. Theologians have ascribed a variety of attributes to the may different conceptions of God. The most common among these include omniscience (infinite knowledge), omnipotence (unlimited power), omnipresence (present everywhere), omnibenevolence (perfect goodness), divine simplicity, and eternal and necessary existence.

God has also been conceived as incorporeal (immaterial), a personal being, the source of all moral obligation, and the "greatest conceivable existent".

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Now that we know the basic concept of what a god is, we can now compare these concepts with the transcendence of Kaname Madoka.


This is the granted wish of Kaname Madoka:

I wish that every witch was erased before they were ever born! Every witch from the entire universe. All of the witches from the past and future. With these hands. - Kaname Madoka, Episode 12.




Madoka became a god for seven major reasons:

1) She created a new world and became the overseer of it.

2) She became omnipresent.

3) She transformed into an eternal being with a necessary existence.

4) She became omnipotent.

5) She became omniscient.

6) She became omnibenevolent. (Although this is assumed.)

7) She obtained divine simplicity.


She created a new world and became the overseer of it.


Madoka's granted wish was to purify and destroy all soul gems before they were transformed into grief seeds. Making such a wish come true meant changing the history of the universe, (since it is likely that Earth is not the only planet that the incubators are interfering with.) Since the history and future of the universe was changed, the way things happened and were to happen was altered, and therefore, became something else. That something else can be called the "new universe" or the "new world" in Earth's case specifically.

And because of the function that her wish, which I will explain more on later, she also became the overseer of this new universe.


She became omnipresent.


Because her wish as granted, Madoka's fate was sealed to travel through time purifying and destroying soul gems, regardless of the limitations of a human being. This is because the function that became her fate (by her wish) could only be made possible by going against the arrow of time, which only travels from the past, present, and then the future respectively. Thus, she transformed into an eternal being with a necessary existence (which fulfills the 3rd reason.)


She became omnipotent. 


Her fate as sealed to purify and destroy all soul gems before they turned to grief seeds, no matter what. What this means basically is that she was granted unlimited power to perform such an act otherwise impossible without the magical power put into granting her wish.


She became omniscient.


This statement can easily be understood by looking at the first three reasons, which I explained above. Since Madoka's fate was sealed to perform an impossible task, she gained everything she needed by the magical powers of Kyubey in order to perform her actions.

If she gained the power (omnipresence and omnipotence) to do this, then there is no reason why she did not gain the omniscience to perform her task as well.


She became omnibenevolent.


With the help of Akemi Homura, Madoka finally found the one true wish that she had been seeking for almost the entire show from the bottom of her heart, which means that it was a wish that gave her happiness.

Although, what is true happiness? (True happiness meaning the essence of it and not just simply the mental and temporary state.) If I were to prove that Madoka became omnibenevolent, I would have to dive into the most intense research of all of history and perhaps even go through an entirely new post (or a series of posts) in order to try and figure out the definition of true happiness, and thus, real proof on whether or not Madoka truly became omnibenevolent.

So for the sake of not trying to define something (yet) such as true happiness, please allow me to assume that Madoka's wish made her truly happy. And since she became omnipresent as well, she will remain truly happy forever.


She obtained divine simplicity


What is divine simplicity anyway? If you are aware of Christianity's concept of the Holy Trinity, which is God in three parts that are also one in the same at the same time, then you most likely understand this concept.

So did Madoka obtain divine simplicity? We can assume that she did because she became a god with a specific function that we cannot seperate from her. And as far as we know, this new immaterial matter that makes up the newly transformed Madoka, although it is split up into different points in time, is still one in the same as the "person" that we know, being Kaname Madoka.




It can be argued that Madoka is not a god for one major potential reason.

1) Her "omnipresence", "omnipotence", and "omniscience" are limited by her function to exist.


Her "omnipresence", "omnipotence", and "omniscience" are limited by her function to exist.


What I mean by this is that although Madoka was indeed granted by unlimited power, she can only use this unlimited power for a specific function. And having a function means that you cannot do anything else but that one function, which means you are limited to what you exist for, which his to exist for that single function.

True, Madoka was granted unlimited power to perform her own function, but not any other thing! She cannot even say, make herself a cake, because making herself a cake is not her reason for existing.

When it comes to performing her function however, she is granted the unlimited power only available by our basic concept of a god to perform that function, which fulfills  her meaning for existence.

But isn't this kind of a ridiculous argument in the first place?

When we ask if the Christian God is omnipotent, he or she will most likely answer yes, and that if he wanted to, he could destroy the human race along with the universe.

But such a thing would go against God's meaning and therefore function, because God is to be a loving God, especially for the human race, which he made specially in his image according to the Bible.

Basically, God has a function of being God, and therefore, a limitation. He cannot say, not be a God, because such a thing would go against His existence!

But then again, this point can be refuted by saying that the Christian God is special because he can even not be God because he is God. And if not being God was necessary in order to be God, then he is still fulfilling his meaning of existence and is therefore, still God.

But isn't this a ridiculous argument as well?

If Madoka truly has the omnipotence required to carry out her function, then that means she could even not perform her function in order to perform her function as well. After all, she has unlimited power to do anything that is possible in order to perform her function and fulfill the meaning of her existence. Performing her function by not performing her function is included. Therefore, she's actually in the same boat as God in this sense.

Thus, the one major argument against Madoka's transcendence is, in a slightly confusing sense, refuted.



Such is the transcendence of Kaname Madoka.

Even so, you have to realize that we're just playing around with the word "god". What does it matter that we agree or disagree who and what a god is? In the end, it's just a word.


One of the main points of this article is to discuss the feat of Urobuchi Gen, which is that he (in my opinion) came the closest out of all storytellers to the actual creation of a god.


Urobuchi created a character/situation that directly leads to the basic concept of "god". 


This is my main point. This what I want to discuss with you all.

Through Madoka, Urobuchi punched a hole through an invisible barrier that has been put up by many people. It is extremely rare and practically unheard of for a mere storyteller to not only define what god is, but to create a potential blueprint for one. 






It's only natural that he did this under the presentation of something such as what Mahou Shoujo Madoka Magica gives us. After all, imagine how controversial this situation would be if his "blueprint" for a god was presented in another kind of atmosphere that was not as indirect, on other than seemingly innocent magical girls fighting for the good of mankind!

Indeed, the presentation of Mahou Shoujo Madoka Magica does hide many things such as the concept I just described above. Whether or not this is the intention of Urobuchi Gen, (and I think that it is very possible...) the presentation did serve as a cover for many hidden themes, messages, and ideas, just like any normal film/series.

And I am glad to say that the goal of this blog series is, in fact, to uncover these exact same things from all works of art pertaining to anime.

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TESTING PHASE (DAY 6) Support Notes

Since I've given up sharing this website on forums due to "advertisement", I've gotten a few more personal suggestions now. I've also added a few things to the site.



- I've added a pages separate from the Blog Archives on the right side of the screen. I figured the site would be more organized in the future if I kept a list of the projects I did so the viewer could simply click on the project and browse through the articles.

- Among these pages is a new "About Anime Insight" page that displays the goal of this site and a little more about it for new viewers.

- The pages were added mostly due to the fact that I could not find a way to make my home page look cleaner by having a "shrink/expand" feature, or at least some kind of feature that allows me to display summaries of individual blogs on the home page and have the viewer click the title or some kind of "read full article" link to redirect them to the full article.

I'm still looking into this.

- I'm still looking into what to do to cite my picture sources.

- I've signed up for Stat Counter and Stat Meter, but since I'm getting so little views, they're not very helpful yet. In fact, it makes me even more worried that the viewers I'm getting are weird sites like Comcast....

I'm still being patient, as usual. The end of the first week is coming so I'll celebrate by posting an article I put extra effort into on Madoka's wish. It will be released by tomorrow.

As usual, I'm looking for your support, comments, and suggestions.

Thank you!


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Playing With Frames

I've been doing some painting lately but really have nothing to show at this point.  I've also been playing around with making my own frames and the frame shown here is an example.

I've mentioned before that I'd like to get away from having to mat and frame my work under glass as having art framed is so expensive.  Even frames by themselves without glass are also expensive so I decided to try to build my own.  The frame on the left was a relatively simple design but dressed up with the addition of a little decorative moulding.  I don't have a lot of fancy woodworking equipment so the frame was made using a simple hand saw and a miter box.

The trick was to get all the sides even with the miters cut so there would be a perfect fit.  That's not at all easy with a hand saw and I did end up cutting more than one of some of the pieces before getting that perfect fit.  I even measured more than twice before cutting!

Anyway, I don't think I'll go into the framing business - at least without investing in a good miter saw, but I did have fun making a couple of frames!
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The Tragedy and Redemption of Akemi Homura (Part 2)




Urobuch presents us with two different tragic characters in Mahou Shoujo Madoka Magica; Miki Sayaka and Akemi Homura. It is important that we compare these two characters in order to achieve a better understanding of the roles they played in the series.



I have proven earlier that both characters are tragic characters who each made their own follies.


Sayaka on the one hand, made two major follies:

1) She destroyed her own self-image by creating a misconception that she had no soul, since she discovered that the soul was moved into the soul gem by the power of Kyubey.

2) She also failed to come to terms with the fact that no matter how much she fought for justice, the people she fought for would never come to recognize her actions and would thus never seek to change their ways. She then lost all hope in the human race and fell into utter despair, because if she could not even use her soulless body as a tool to bring happiness to others, then her life meant nothing.





Homura on the other hand, made one major mistake:

1) She attempted to defy the balance/laws of nature by wishing to save Madoka from and after death.


Sayaka's follies led to her tragic death, and she died a foil; meaning as a defeated character who never redeemed herself from her mistakes.

Homura was indeed defeated by her own mistake as well, except she as saved, in the end, by Madoka, who reversed time and thus saved Homura from becoming a witch.

So why was it that Homura was saved, while Sayaka was not?


Let's figure this out by first looking at what Homura had that Sayaka did not.

1) Homura had a specific person to protect at all costs. Her goal, therefore, was focused.

2) Homura had a friend who also protected her. In the end, Madoka not only gave up her existence as a human being to save all Mahou Shoujo from becoming wtiches, but for the sake of saving Homura as well, her own protector.


When looking at these two things relative to Sayaka, we can see that Sayaka's situation was almost the complete opposite.


Here's what I mean:

1) Sayaka fought to protect her town, at all costs. This involved many people; strangers she did not know individually.

2) Sayaka had no one to protect her or anyone to at least recognize her actions. Madoka did indeed offer to aid Sayaka in any way she could, but Sayaka turned her down, which was another major folly of hers.

Thus, Sayaka fought alone from the shadows.




Homura was saved while Sayaka was not. Homura also had something that Sayaka did not, which was a friend; a friend whom she loved and a friend who loved her back equally. And in the end, this friend saved Homura in return for her love.

Sayaka, on the other hand, had no friend to save her. She pushed away her friend, Madoka, and decided to fight as a lone warrior in the shadows of her town. Indeed, she fought for happiness and justice, but she fought alone.

Perhaps what is being said by Urobuchi is that one's own willpower alone is not enough to save others or to be saved, but that such salvation comes from a love that is mutual between different people. This is because when you are dying, and you are alone, no one will come and save you. And as long as you survive, you can then continue to fight and use your life for what you believe in.

One's own willpower alone is not enough to be save others or to be saved, since salvation comes from a love that is mutual between different people. 

Notice how I only use the words "save" "salvation", because what does it matter if a person is good or evil? As long as that person loves someone, and that someone loves him or her back, then the two will save each other, and therefore share the same fate, no matter what.

Such is the philosophy and message of Urobuchi Gen.




With that said, let me come back to my previous question from Part 1 of this blog.

Is Homura's wish to protect Madoka a selfless wish based on a pure and innocent heart, or was it a foolish wish since it defied nature itself?

The answer is that it was both innocent and foolish. After all, aren't the innocent innocent because of the fact that they are foolish since they know nothing? It is indeed foolish, and a folly, to wish to save her best friend from death. Therefore, she received death and defeat as her reward. But she was saved.


She was saved. 


That is the key point. She was saved because she loved someone, and that someone loved her back and saved her in return. Thus, they both shared the same fate.

Such is the tragedy and redemption of Akemi Homura.

But if this is true, then the other questioned I mentioned in the beginning of Part 1 arises.


Is Akemi Homura a foil, meaning a mistake?


What we know for a fact is that her wish to save someone who has died was a mistake, because such a thing is impossible according to the laws of nature. In this sense, she was a foil, because she failed to save Madoka from dying as a human being.

HOWEVER, (and this is a BIG however), because of the opportunity that was created by Homura as well as the love that she was shown by Homura, Madoka made a decision that was based solely on her very own wish, which was to save all Mahou Shoujo from their fate of becoming witches.

Basically, by the actions of Homura, Madoka finally found her one true wish.

And as a result of her wish, all the Mahou Shoujo in the past, present, and future gained happiness before they died as human beings.

It was because of Homura's actions of love that Madoka found her true wish. Therefore, how could we say that Akemi Homura was a mistake? A foil?

It is a paradox; It was because of Homura's mistake that Madoka found true happiness. So was that mistake a mistake in the first place?

Does Urobuchi truly believe that doing something for the one you love, even if it meant defying the laws of nature, is something that should be done? Something that is actually not a mistake?


Truly loving someone means that you would defy the laws of nature to save the one you love; which is to bring them happiness. 


Is this the philosophy and message of Urobuchi Gen?



















Thus, we are now presented with a very intriguing question, and a very interesting way of thinking. Perhaps the only way we could find out Urobuchi's true way of thinking is by asking him himself.
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